until I remember

 

talking with you
has been relegated
to my dreams.
I wake up in
a better mood
until I remember

Life Lines, Pt 2: Parallelism is a Choice

It turns out our lives were perpendicular, yet

our hearts took the shortcut we could never

what you’re looking for cannot be found here,

or anywhere or in anyone but you it is a choice

and that is all. to love to die to self to live

Life Lines, Pt 1: Perpendicular Lives

do not compare your life to my pictures

I climbed a hundred mountains between

each take and fell from one hundred more

do not replace his face with yours

or make a wish and wonder what if

I am but an image on your screen

 a gif in your mind a stranger in real life

some days

some days its a waiting game
who can the longest?
its hard to outwait yourself.
some days my brain betrays me
and i don’t trust my thoughts and truth is watered down and fingers scrape
towards the light. some days its a haze

 

double standard

if he talked to you. the way
you sometimes talk to him.
everyone would be concerned

quiet confidence is a better argument

you bluster. about strength and independence
hurricane winds only knock things down
who are you. trying to convince
maybe yourself

still

Some days it feels delicate like a breeze.
could blow us apart or the sun wilt us away
other days. as rooted as an aged oak tree or
the foundation of a tower. grazing infinity with
its fingertips today is not one of those days.
and i still want to be with you.

two heads

how can i fear death
yet keep choosing it.
over life.

why do i feed it with
one hand. even as it
eats the other.